.

ignorance is bliss.

nothing is transparent anymore.
everything seems so secretive.
i don't know all your friends.
you wont allow me to check on you but you check on me.
i don't know who you are entertaining.
i don't know who you are ignoring.
nothing is transparent anymore.

Why?
Only you know.

I no longer want to be a softie.
You are dominating this relationship.
1 wrong move i make and you threaten me with so many things.
it is so unsure what you really want from me.

ALL THIS HAVE NEVER HAPPENED BEFORE.
You've really changed.
I see it now.


Don't take advantage of me.

.

and after all i've been doing to win her back, she's still entertaining those guys. she still ignores my needs. does anyone even care about how i feel nowadays? sigh.

i thought you'd changed for me.

Tinik's Engagement.

well, it was as usual. relatives and all. exchangin of gifts. and the hantaran. 10K! haha.
nenek cakap, Kusmangat.
Manis!
hahaha!
Anyway, i have decided on my own that i will offer $11,111.11 for my sayang. She's worth every penny. and i can afford it. so lets work towards that honey. kalau tunang, macam mane nak letak eh tu amount? haha.

oh ya, she was one of the MANY camerawomen there today. she took over 300 pictures. can you believe that? she loves taking pictures that much. she even had to get her batteries changed cos there were so many pictures to be taken. haha. so cute my sayang. obviously you love that camera so much my dear. i'm sure you will be busy transferring the pics to the pc while ur reading this entry. haha. Im very VERY sure. =p

took many pics today. but during atik's engagement i only had 1 pic taken. hehe. ate alot. prolly explainin y i look so bloated in those pics. haha.

our turn in 2 weeks? hehehehe..

The pressure is on. Can we pull it off?

Duh! =)

4th Year Anniversary.

Just Us. 01/11/08. The 4th Year.

This was one of the best times i had since a long time ago. We had so much fun though time was short-lived and we spent each of our precious moments together happily.

I almost teared while reading that small card she gave me. It was so sweet honey. Awwww.. i love you. She got me a funky looking ring and i kinda like it. It would have been better if the ring has nothing moving. Haha. She also got me like this "paper rose" formed into a heart. I dont really know how to explain it here but it was really beautiful. =)

Thanks alot honey. I really appreciate what you have done for me. I noe ur finance is very tight. So getting me those things were really enough to melt me dear. From the bottom of my heart, its true.

So please dont keep saying that you feel bad or whatsoever ok cos items can be bought but u can only win a heart over. No amount of money can give you that.

Its just good enough to know that you still love me the way you said you do.

Btw, you look really gorgeous in that dress today honey. I knew you would look good in it. Haha. You're so beautiful today. And i can see how happy you were after receiving that camera. You got really "jakon" with it. Haha. So darn cute!! After getting it, u looked really amazed and happy and hugged me straight away. Awwww.. I needed that. Thanks dear. I hope you will enjoy the camera as much as i have enjoyed seeing you happy today.
I love you baby. =-*

I fell for you once again. Only this time, i fell harder.