.

she's sooooo busy. and when she's free, she cant go out much.
i'm sooooo busy, but when i'm free, she cant go out.

end up, we always meet at nite. and there's nothin much we can do at nite.
plus, her mom always makes noise cos she's out too often.
sigh.

why cant her mom be more flexible, or at least she could somehow talk to her mom about this?

now, the number of smses are still not improving. and during most of the time, both of us are working. that explains why. so this will go on for many years to come cos she'll get to work at one of the hospitals and i'll be serving my NS.
sigh.

i hope this wont lead to us tearing apart once again. God please help us. I beg you..

the affection? sigh. just a teeny weeny lil bit of it now. and its been like 2-3 months now since we have reconciled. too long dont you think dear?
sigh.

i really dunno what is in your head. REALLY.

i still feel like just a fren to you.
where's my poems?
where's my "gf-like" comments in frenster?
where's my attention i'm supposed to get from you?

all i get each time we go out is almost the same routine.
and i get scolded or shouted at each time i ask you questions.
yet u say in ur old entry quoted :
"i feel single. i dunno his whereabouts nor does he noe mine. we are drifing apart. i dunno wad he is doing and he does not noe mine".

but when i do all this questioning, you get irritated dear.

WHY?

sigh.

never mind la. i'm still following her flow cos she thinks she has one. she says she has no more problems and all anymore. but i dun feel like its true.
why dont i feel loved at all now?
i shall wait for it. but..
till when?
sigh.

till i had enough of her obliviousness towards my feelings and needs?


well,


i already had enough of that.