time.

why is time so cruel?
why cant you give in to us to be together?
why cant you slow down at times it was best?
why cant you speed it up at times we needed it most?
why are you so selfish?
why do you even exist??

sigh.

everything is time.
Time is really essence.

120 hours of cso-time.
fixing things-time.
ending of probation-time.
waiting for ns-time.
marking the end of ns-time.
marriage-time.
money-time.

such an irritant nobody can avoid.

if only the "Father of All Time" existed.

IF only.

i still miss her so much. everyday it gets worse. maybe cos i am still too demanding for her attention. or maybe she is just not paying enough attention. i dont know. dont wanna think or say much. the comment she gave me in friendster really made my day. but its still not enough attention that i needed. i need it like way back in the days. it would just help to make this a more beautiful one. and seems that now she is not influenced or moved by anyone anymore. i like that. she really wants this. i really want it too. but time is still putting a real strain on our necks. sigh.

how i wish that i could turn back the hands of time.
and when it was at its best, i'll fast forward it to our marriage.

50 hours of cso left. 5 hours to do tomorrow and 5 more on sunday. and when there's 40 left, it'll be 8 hours a day for 5 days or 10 hours a day for 4 days. performance on fri next week at army camp. i'm so dead tired. wishing someone could really give me a good massage and make my day. flu is back. bloody running nose. sigh. always get sick from overworking. why cant i just be like others with powerful immune systems? so unfair. wake up every morning with sinnus (not sure how to spell this). sigh..

she still din get back to me about tar removal and airway cleaning. i wanna stop smoking la. help me find out pls. =(

time goes by, so slowly..
and i, can only do so much..
you are still mine..

i dont care. haha. i changed the lyrics.. hehe. =P

i miss you darling. sigh..
see you tomorrow after my cso.

hopefully i wont get too tired.
my knees are asking me for sympathy.
been too hard on my legs lately. hmmm.